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I don't know. What do I want to be? What can I be is more like it.. All that I am is confined to the edges of this paper. An outlet for my personal torment..

Hello, I am Sebastian Crow. this is my mind.

Why can't I put my trust into people? They always let it all out, spill their guts, but I sit there like a tree. Silent and strong.. But on the inside I have bugs.. Creatures, crawling, biting, gnawing at the insides of me. I'm damaged goods. This is me failing. None of this is for me. None of it. I try and it seems like nothing ever comes out of it. What do I want to be?
My biggest fear is looking into a mirror and not knowing who will stare back. It feels like I'm slowly reaching that point. This perfectionism.. I can never look and be pleased, be satisfied.. All I ever see is what more I could do, what I could be.. Not what I am. What am I? I'm not even enough for me.. I can't even reach my standards, and they aren't high at all..
Even I don't know who I am.
I can't help it. It's ingrained into my skin, my flesh, my blood. It's carved into my bone.

(Eventually I'm sure, I'll open up and I'll scratch more than just the bark of this tree.)
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I'm back.

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My poems have been lacking what used to give them the spark I could call me own. If that makes sense I guess, It's been a while since I've written anything at all that's even remotely decent. I think I've found that spark again, this time though.. It's inside myself and the beauty in the world I never thought to look at. I'll be submitting my poems and writings again, hopefully if time is on my side, pretty consistently. Anyway, to sum it up. A quick word here and there and whatnot saying it's good or something I could work on would be great. If you read this.. Thank you for taking the time to do so!! I've finally found a more in depth look at who I really am. The good and the bad. I think that'll reflect.. Anywho. Thank you!
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So... I am currently writing my very first book.. I am going to post the rough drafts of the chapters and whatnot and I would GREATLY appreciate any feed back on them. :)

~Thank you!
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Diary of a Madman. #1 by TheOpossum9, journal

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Well then here it does. My work in Progress.. by TheOpossum9, journal