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I don't know. What do I want to be? What can I be is more like it.. All that I am is confined to the edges of this paper. An outlet for my personal torment..
Hello, I am Sebastian Crow. this is my mind.
Why can't I put my trust into people? They always let it all out, spill their guts, but I sit there like a tree. Silent and strong.. But on the inside I have bugs.. Creatures, crawling, biting, gnawing at the insides of me. I'm damaged goods. This is me failing. None of this is for me. None of it. I try and it seems like nothing ever comes out of it. What do I want to be?
My biggest fear is looking into a mirror and not knowing who will stare back. It feels like I'm slowly reaching that point. This perfectionism.. I can never look and be pleased, be satisfied.. All I ever see is what more I could do, what I could be.. Not what I am. What am I? I'm not even enough for me.. I can't even reach my standards, and they aren't high at all..
Even I don't know who I am.
I can't help it. It's ingrained into my skin, my flesh, my blood. It's carved into my bone.
(Eventually I'm sure, I'll open up and I'll scratch more than just the bark of this tree.)
Hello, I am Sebastian Crow. this is my mind.
Why can't I put my trust into people? They always let it all out, spill their guts, but I sit there like a tree. Silent and strong.. But on the inside I have bugs.. Creatures, crawling, biting, gnawing at the insides of me. I'm damaged goods. This is me failing. None of this is for me. None of it. I try and it seems like nothing ever comes out of it. What do I want to be?
My biggest fear is looking into a mirror and not knowing who will stare back. It feels like I'm slowly reaching that point. This perfectionism.. I can never look and be pleased, be satisfied.. All I ever see is what more I could do, what I could be.. Not what I am. What am I? I'm not even enough for me.. I can't even reach my standards, and they aren't high at all..
Even I don't know who I am.
I can't help it. It's ingrained into my skin, my flesh, my blood. It's carved into my bone.
(Eventually I'm sure, I'll open up and I'll scratch more than just the bark of this tree.)
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I'm back.
My poems have been lacking what used to give them the spark I could call me own. If that makes sense I guess, It's been a while since I've written anything at all that's even remotely decent. I think I've found that spark again, this time though.. It's inside myself and the beauty in the world I never thought to look at. I'll be submitting my poems and writings again, hopefully if time is on my side, pretty consistently. Anyway, to sum it up. A quick word here and there and whatnot saying it's good or something I could work on would be great. If you read this.. Thank you for taking the time to do so!! I've finally found a more in depth look a
Well then here it does. My work in Progress..
So... I am currently writing my very first book.. I am going to post the rough drafts of the chapters and whatnot and I would GREATLY appreciate any feed back on them. :)
~Thank you!
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To quote you "I am aiden" .and that's what you are.you can't be perfect,if you were perfect no one would love you.it's not humanly possible anyway so don't worry about it 
.we all have that fear,I know I do,looking in the mirror day after day wondering if what people see is me,if maybe even I'm fooling myself into thinking I'm something different than what I am.in the end we have to depend on what's most important,those who care about us and love us regardless are the ones who truly see us.if they don't have a problem with us why should we? I've told you before,people like you for your good qualities and love you for your imperfections.and on the matter of not being able to spill your guts,why should you have to?you should only do what makes you feel safe,all that matters if people know about you what you want them to,the rest comes naturally along the way you don't have to let someone in your head for them to understand you.you can be whatever you truly set your heart on.the future and our hopes for it are all that keep us misfits going no? (Drawing done with finger on touchscreen so no make fun k?)
.we all have that fear,I know I do,looking in the mirror day after day wondering if what people see is me,if maybe even I'm fooling myself into thinking I'm something different than what I am.in the end we have to depend on what's most important,those who care about us and love us regardless are the ones who truly see us.if they don't have a problem with us why should we? I've told you before,people like you for your good qualities and love you for your imperfections.and on the matter of not being able to spill your guts,why should you have to?you should only do what makes you feel safe,all that matters if people know about you what you want them to,the rest comes naturally along the way you don't have to let someone in your head for them to understand you.you can be whatever you truly set your heart on.the future and our hopes for it are all that keep us misfits going no? (Drawing done with finger on touchscreen so no make fun k?)